Extremely MESSED up!!

2009-10-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

Years of regrets. Unable to turn back..

罗志祥 - 自恋

说我爱你
从男人的心里
是最难表达诚实的秘密
说你愿意
靠在我肩的你
是最难抗拒动人的回应
你扬起的嘴角
给我爱情的动力
弯弯的眼睛
藏不住你孩子气
看着我在你眼里
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
OH BABY
我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现

暧昧后得到的不是自恋
看你泛红的脸说出模糊的话语
我的心只听见你心里的回音
看着我在你眼睛
眼神是如此肯定
那就是我一直等待着美丽
我承认我爱上你的美
你的脸和你的眉
让我面对自己无法再自恋
OH BABY
我承认我爱上你的美
你让全宇宙失眠
让我爱到像流星一样的坠
我才发现
睡不能睡脑海都是你画面
OH 幸福帮我剪接你的笑脸
我承认我爱上你的美
你的美没有虚伪
让我爱你爱到忘了我是谁
OH BABY
因为你我爱上夜的黑
像搭着无人地铁
开向你为我设的专署路线
终于看见
我承认我爱上你的。。

2009-08-18T00:53:00.000+08:00

Whatever it is....life still goes on and on.............

2009-07-09T01:38:00.000+08:00

This blog have been neglected for quite some time....

2009-05-28T06:26:00.001+08:00

Day 2 of feeling lousy~

2009-05-18T17:01:00.001+08:00

2 June, 10.30pm, channel 8, 星期二特写...watch out for my brother and sis in-law's story..

Sorry, its over alrealy. they have change the broadcast day..

2009-05-16T02:46:00.002+08:00

My bike giving problems!! First was last week, got it fix and now again. I had to ride 40km/h from yishun to home which took me about a hour. Was the most tiring ride i ever had!! Now to to figure it out how to ride to bike shop..DAMN IT!!

2009-03-27T00:06:00.001+08:00

Suddenly, i felt so confused. Confused about eveything. I want everything.

2009-02-26T23:27:00.002+08:00

Two weeks ago, i saw a man nearly got hit by two cars while crossing the pedestrian crossing. My heart nearly drop out witnessing it, lucky both cars was at slow speed and that guy can manage to dodge them. Today, another one. One car was speeding and beating the red light and the red light was on for quite sometime already. Two guy just ran across to get away from it. This one my heart was like shit! Nowadays, be it a road user or a pedestrian have to beware of the traffic around. Drivers are getting reckless. It affect me so much due to a bad past experience. Still deep in my mind.

2009-02-15T01:54:00.001+08:00

Somebody finished my chocolates!!! arh!!! i only had a few pieces which i can't bear to finish it so fast...AND now its gone!!!

2009-02-13T00:45:00.000+08:00

I want to go travelling alone. Get myself some peace and fun.

2009-02-02T04:03:00.002+08:00

兰亭序

1. Put your music on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY? 敢不敢-罗志祥
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? 不懂我的心 - 罗志祥
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? 心动心痛-刘畊宏
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Whine Up - Kat de Luna
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Dui Ni You Gan Jue - guang liang & Jiang mei qi
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? 流浪诗人 - 周杰伦
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? Trading Places - usher
WHAT IS 2+2?高调爱 - 罗志祥
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Can't get my eyes off you - Muse
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? 爱转角 - 罗志祥
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? 乔克叔叔 - 周杰伦
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Run the show - Kat de Luna
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Makes me wonder - maroon 5
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? 自我催眠 - 罗志祥
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Low - Flo Rida
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? 说好的幸福呢 - 周杰伦
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Live you life - T.I. ft Rihanna
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? 潮男正傳- 罗志祥
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN? Right now - Akon
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY? Superhuman - Chris Brown Ft. James Fauntleroy & Keris Hilson
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH? 龙战骑士 - 周杰伦
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET? 帶我走 - 楊丞琳
HOW WILL YOU DIE? If i never see your face again - Maroon 5
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED? 假如你还在这里 - 罗志祥
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? In the ayer - Flo rida
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU? Dance for life - Dj Tiesto
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST? 蛇舞 - 周杰伦
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE? 潜意识失控 - 罗志祥
WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS? 你不是真正的快乐 - 五月天
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS? 兰亭序 - 周杰伦

2009-02-02T02:56:00.002+08:00

Down with stomach flu, fever with a 39deg and slept thru out friday and diarrhea thru out sat. And keep having stomach cramps, just like a woman's period.........everything just feel like falling down on you when you fell sick. sigh~

2009-01-28T16:11:00.002+08:00

Love someone is good, being loved is better. But love may hurt too. Especially, when there's a third party. It's nothing new this days for someone to cheat. Be it the man or woman, its still hurt a lot for that victim. In the end everybody get hurt depending on how much. Human being are so difficult to please.

2009-01-23T23:16:00.002+08:00

罗志祥-好朋友

像两首节拍不同的歌
却又同时被爱情合奏
旋律勉强着
愉快不能够假装快乐
你心中有宽阔的天空
空气还稀薄
曾经等待因为会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞

如果爱情是五线谱
我只希望用全音符
吟唱出爱上你
那完整的幸福
当你的心没有耳朵
即使我为你唱着歌
你也只看见我哭了
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
还会不会寂寞
曾经因为等待会改变什么
你总会属于我
但是最后时间证明了
你只喜欢我
你说我比较像你的好朋友
只是不小心拥抱着
你道歉你难过
于是我给你笑容
谁在乎我的心
ho 还会不会寂寞
你说我我是你最好的朋友
却不应该再拥抱着
你退缩你冷漠
于是我放开双手
不在乎我的心
会永远的寂寞呜..

☆.☆献给永远走在一起的朋友

2009-01-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

Though I've enjoyed my birthday, but there's still some uncertainty in my mind....

2009-01-12T00:57:00.002+08:00

罗志祥-自我催眠

人群里面那个我把幸福遗落
那曾经走过的路口我停了你却走
我想捂住我的耳朵听不见你说
爱就在此刻松手分手放手
我猜不透不猜透
和你背对背的走
原来怪我没有
没有爱情的天分你才要走
我想要学会自我催眠
痛觉会少一些
潜意识作祟想着想到失眠
我躺在没有你的房间
寂寞更加明显
我渐渐的自我催眠
却回不到从前
等着红灯那个我还会向前走
也许那幸福的执着在下一个路口
专属铃声我还留着却静静沉默
在我们之间爱了放了散了
我会不说不想说
怕说了也没有用
现在我的幽默
只是掩饰着心痛我的难过
聪明再多一些
我走在没有你的世界
却走不到永远
慢慢闭上双眼

2009-01-04T22:22:00.001+08:00

I wish.....i wish.....i wish.......
So many wishes, but the wishes are far away......

2009-01-02T00:52:00.000+08:00

It takes fate for two to meet in this lifetime...
God's Will that We become friends to Good friends.
It is also my blessings that I have you by my side in times of good and bad...
that I learn to cherish your existence in this world...
no matter where you are.
People says that friendship are God's Gift.
And it is something that I too believe in...
That sometimes...
I am locked in a dilemma...
A dilemma of what my heart says ...
will it wreck this friendship?

2008-12-30T00:36:00.004+08:00

wooohhhoooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Suddenly i think i have high blood pressure!!!!!!!!! HELP HELP!!!! can time just turn faster!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Is it for my Bday?? is it is it??? ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! i need a chill pill...i cant stop putting so much "!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

2008-12-29T01:39:00.001+08:00

so sad~ 2 of my friends' grandparent just passed away. Sabrina's grandfather and haikal's grandmother.

2008-12-25T18:08:00.002+08:00

Christmas Eve night, yet another crazy stuff i did like xmas 07. Rush off after work to paasir ris park to catch the boat to a nearby offshore kelong. Once onboard, no waiting but preparation of the fishing rods to start. Though it stopped raining for awhile, we still carry on casting our lines to the sea in the rain. It was so cold out there with the strong winds blowing. Unfortunately the current was too strong and the water was too cold, there's no catch till morning. End of kelong trip and we went back mainland for breakfast. Still feeling unsatisfied, we head to sungei buloh fishing pond for a second round of fishing. 3hrs of sleepy waiting still nothing, but what tempted us was the pond beside. A pond filled with BIG, WILD and HUNGRY fishes!!! It was really tempting. we tested the fish by throwing some baits over the fence and the fishes reacted so quickly even before the bait drop into the water and snap, gone with a glimpse. But its so costly, 2hrs for $300 with max of 5 rods and you can't bring back your catch. Each fish is half my height, some were 2times FATTER my thighs! I will go for it one fine day to fight the fishes. So good~and now home zombie.... pictures will be up in facebook!

2008-12-18T23:39:00.002+08:00

Aiya, actually its so easy to send a parcel overseas. Go post office fill in some paper, pay money and thats it. got me so headache for past few days. DHL even better, going extra mile service as they do door to door from collection to delivery. so good but pay more la..heheh!

ps. liz, actually i can send it much much cheaper but wait 2 weeks, i took the speedpost instead.

2008-12-17T00:45:00.001+08:00

how the hell to send a package overseas..why is it like so difficult..hahaha..nvm, will go down to the post office again to ask..

2008-12-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

hoooowoooooo~

So tired and exhausted.

2008-11-25T02:57:00.000+08:00

WooooooooHooooooooooooooo~

2008-11-09T23:34:00.003+08:00

Beware Ladies, you are wanted by this man.

His targets are just that two buns he's holding. haha. LAME~

Cam-whoring me!

2008-11-07T00:50:00.002+08:00

There's no one who is 100%, but only 2 loved ones with 50% each.
Show sincerity to people and you will receive sincerity back, but you might get hurt.
Keep a distance can protect yourself, but you may be lonely for life.
The word BELIEVE always have a LIE.

If only you willing to take the first step, i'll finish the remaining steps for you.

2008-11-03T16:51:00.001+08:00

woohoo..finally got a new phone..long awaited samsung clamshell phone..

2008-10-26T23:42:00.001+08:00

Suddenly i had a wild thought. I want to get myself inked...

2008-10-26T01:42:00.002+08:00

你把我灌醉
黄大炜

开
往城市边缘开
把车窗都摇下来
用速度换一点痛快
孤单
被热闹的夜赶出来
却无从告白
是你留给我的悲哀
喔爱让人变得放不开
喔爱让人自找伤害
你把我灌醉
你让我流泪
撒下了所有罪
我拼命挽回
你把我灌醉
你让我心碎
爱得收不回...恩...
猜
最好最坏都猜
你还不明白
我的心永远有答案
对我
你爱得太慢
又走得太快
我的心你不明白
喔爱让人变得放不开
喔爱让人自找伤害
你把我灌醉
你让我流泪
撒下了所有罪
我拼命挽回
你把我灌醉
你让我心碎
爱得收不回..恩..
我梦到哪里
你都在怎么能忘怀
你那神秘的笑脸是不是说
放不下你是我活该
收不回

2008-10-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

Is it on purpose or just plain coincidence?
Consecutive dreams?
dilemma feelings?
Can time just flash pass so that i can let down the past?

2008-10-19T01:20:00.001+08:00

Just received a $70 fine from the traffic police. So wasted.

2008-10-13T03:16:00.002+08:00

I can only listen to love song of others because I cannot compose a good one by myself.

2008-10-06T04:17:00.000+08:00

All i wish for is just for you to understand me and know how i have felt.

2008-10-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Mega shiok-ness today in JB. Started off with a nice feastful brunch. A good 1hr body massage(which i felt a bit being molested, haha) and another 20mins of hair wash. Next stop is shopping, but return wasn't really that good. Got a little disappointed with this shirt i wanted to buy twice and its always either dirty or stained with some dye on every piece that they have. Next time round hope i can get it. In between, there's a break for Mcdonald's ice-cream, M'sia Mcflurry its always that good compare to Singapore's. McFlurry's Chocolate Cornetto, orgasmic!! To end the day, we had our dinner at this alley with food stalls along it. Stingrays, sotongs, oyster omelette, BBQ chicken drumsticks and popiah. Its always good to just take a bus over to JB to relax yourself.

Today onwards, not going to be bothered by you and you and YOU again!!! Yes, just one you...

Singapore: Grand Prix F1 2oo8: Felipe Massa Pitstop accident

2008-09-29T17:05:00.001+08:00

The goes one of the ferrari team's hope

2008-09-28T23:27:00.001+08:00

From today onwards, your heart will not beat any faster when excited.
You will not perspire with passion.
You will not taste the food when you eat.
You will not love things that how it should be loved.
You will have difficulty on getting what you wants to.
You will never be satisfied with what you had achieved.
You just going to be nothing better.
Until the day you die, there's still regrets!

2008-09-27T00:19:00.003+08:00

Let not the heart but the mind do the decision because the heart will get distracted and make the wrong choice.

Artist: Amy Winehouse
Title: Just Friends

When will we get the time to be just friends
It's never safe for us not even in the evening'
Cos I've been drinking
Not in the morning where your shit works
It's always dangerous when everybody's sleeping
And I've been thinking
Can we be alone?
Can we be alone?
When will we get the time to be just friends
When will we get the time to be just friends
And no I'm not ashamed but the guilt will kill you
If she don't first
I'll never love you like her
Though we need to find the time
To just do this shit together
For it gets worse
I wanna touch you
But that just hurts
When will we get the time to be just just friends
When will we get the time to be just friends, just friends
When will we get the time to be just friends, just friends
When will we get the time to be just friends, just friends
Just friends

2008-09-24T23:53:00.002+08:00

I wonder what kind of person i am. Based on what other people's view, is it the truth or is it just some words to make me feel better. Sometimes things just don't link. I think i'm just thinking too much. Bla bla bla!!

2008-09-22T23:50:00.003+08:00

Love is a precious gift that you receive, and you need to give it with caution.

Receive it and treasure it.

Losing it will only bring sadness and regrets, but lesson learnt.

Give it with all your mights, not toying one's feelings.

Be it she or he is the right one or not, still got to respect them.

Afterall what you have done will turn around and be done on you,

Be it good or bad.

2008-09-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

Parents out of town, brother not home, left with me and my relatives at home. Sian..so bored.. so stagnant..I wanna go out!!

2008-09-17T01:10:00.003+08:00

Even if you don't have a sweetheart right now, this day is going to be full of romance for you! So if you're not going to be falling in love with another person all over again, you'll be falling in love with yourself all over again -- which might feel ten times as sweet. You are a wonderful person, and even if there's no one in your life right now to remind you of that fact, you can remind yourself. It's a nice powerful feeling to remind yourself how special you are.

Argh!! Level 80 and then its gone!!

http://www.addictinggames.com/antbuster.html

2008-09-15T13:55:00.003+08:00

Some random photos of birthday celebration at Long Beach Dempsey

My all time favourite mega feasting and crabbing!!! HAHAHA

2008-09-12T02:50:00.002+08:00

Wild thoughts going through my mind, or i should say things that i want to do and achieve. In life, there's so many live examples around me. Good and bad. It feels really good when you enjoy the moments, but it feels worse when you suffer from it. Sometimes you don't have the chance to decide for yourself. Fate arrange it for you. Came to this world of the same procedure, ate the same kind of rice, but lead a different life. Take several goals in life, achieve it one by one. You will only crash when you are greedy. Will i able to achieve mine?

2008-09-08T15:06:00.000+08:00

Smile to the mirror and say you're fine.

2008-09-07T00:29:00.001+08:00

Andy Lau is coming to Singapore.. I wanna go for his concert..but no money!!! Damn!!

2008-09-05T01:52:00.001+08:00

Passion or Money? Which i go with. If you find there's other better opportunity, would you move on? This questions came to my mind today.

2008-09-03T00:20:00.001+08:00

so "FAN"...got bang by taxi somemore...."FAN" above "FAN"!!!!

2008-09-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

Regret is when you look back and realize that you could have done more.
Regret is when you realize that what you did was wrong.
Regret is when you look back on life and wish that you could go back and relive a single day of your past.
Regret is remembering someone who meant so much to you and remembering how you did them wrong.
Regret is looking back on something that meant so much to you and never realizing what you really had.
Regret is never saying I Love you.
Regret is going on in life, having so many regrets in life, and never having the ability to do anything about it.
Regret is never remembering to live life to the fullest.

By Rick M. Webb

2008-08-31T00:30:00.002+08:00

You have it your own way.
Yet I survived.
Love is lost and love is won.
And did you ever see everything inside me.
It's ok to feel lost.
It will find its own way out.

2008-08-28T01:06:00.003+08:00

I hate this kind of feeling. I was having coffee with some of my friends at holland village. On the way to the carpark, there's this group of girls sitting at the food centre and one of them called me. I turned and looked, her face was total stranger, sorry to say. So i just waved and continued walking. I kept thinking, who is she. I don't know where did i get to know her and she called my name so confidently like we knew reach other for long. Hmmm..i'm getting a headache out of this..

2008-08-26T22:28:00.001+08:00

I guess I'm going through the lowest part of life.

Turn your lights down low - Bob Marley

Turn your lights down low
And pull your window curtains;
Oh, let Jah moon come shining in -
Into our life again,
Sayin': ooh, it's been a long, long (long, long, long, long) time;
I kept this message for you, girl,
But it seems I was never on time;
Still I wanna get through to you, girlie,
On time - on time.
I want to give you some love (good, good lovin');
I want to give you some good, good lovin' (good, good lovin').
Oh, I - oh, I - oh, I,
Say, I want to give you some good, good lovin' (good, good lovin'):
Turn your lights down low;
Never try to resist, oh no!
Oh, let my love come tumbling in -
Into our life again,
Sayin': ooh, I love ya!
And I want you to know right now,
I love ya!
And I want you to know right now,'
Cause I - that I -
I want to give you some love, oh-ooh!
I want to give you some good, good lovin';
Oh, I - I want to give you some love;
Sayin': I want to give you some good, good lovin':
Turn your lights down low, wo-oh!
Never - never try to resist, oh no!
Ooh, let my love - ooh, let my love come tumbling in -
Into our life again.
Oh, I want to give you some good, good lovin' (good, good lovin').

2008-08-25T00:29:00.001+08:00

Feeling shit again!!

2008-08-23T00:57:00.001+08:00

Sore throat for a week already. When will it end.
I'M CRAVING FOR CHOCOLATES!!!

2008-08-21T23:40:00.001+08:00

HATE - MISS - LOVE

2008-08-17T00:56:00.002+08:00

A great weekend i'm enjoying. Friday went Zouk-ing till late and got myself late for work on a saturday morning. It's about half a year since i last club. The feeling is good. And Emerald Hill No.5 for some 1-for-1 Martinis...Choya Martini..yum yum..and now got to go sleep before its too late and overslept tomorrow morning for work. Sunday any more programme?? Shall see...

2008-08-15T01:32:00.000+08:00

Yet another day have passed.
Life still goes on.

2008-08-13T23:51:00.001+08:00

Good girls are bad girls who never get caught.
When got caught and not doing anything are just shit.
haha..
I wanna go overseas.

2008-08-12T00:27:00.002+08:00

For the past few days, i've been sitting in front of the computer, playing Ant buster and fell zzZZZz... And when i woke up, all my cakes are gone into the ant nest!! hah hah~

Had quite a good off day today, had my hair coloured violet at salon. Off to Bike shop for servicing. Down to bugis to meet my twin sisters Fre & Don for dinner and desserts at NYDC. Met Jo and Justin to KTM for some snacks again. Mega eat until i felt like puking, its overwhelming..So shiok...And end of off day, work tomorrow. Happy Working!!

2008-08-11T02:00:00.001+08:00

Yet another bad day for me today. Totally no mood! Just can't control my emotions. Why can't it just go away.

2008-08-06T00:32:00.002+08:00

Today i was feeling good though that shit feeling just keep hanging loose behind me. Had dinner with colleagues after work. And another colleague is resigning. 2 colleague had a small misunderstanding between them im just a neutral listening. tomorrow going JB with friends.

And Dennis lim call me and say: You going JB tmr with them is it?
Me: ya, are you joining us?
Dennis: wah lao, tmr i got to work and both of them going JB, And i called geri but she nvr answer. can you tell her that when u see her tmr. so lonely.

Haha Dennis, just too bad i guess..Anyway tmr off but too broke to do anything much. shit~

2008-08-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

Life still goes on without her by my side. Though it's kind of difficult at times. What to do, this is life. At least I know you are happily leading your own life now which is not a problem to you. But nevertheless i will lead my life even better. Sorry to say, maybe to prove to you or just prove to myself that i'm better. Work is tiring today but its good! going to play my GTA already..

2008-08-03T01:33:00.001+08:00

SHIT!!!

Everything not going smooth today!

2008-07-31T22:44:00.002+08:00

31st july 2007, exactly 1 year ago. Hope you will enjoy this year';s birthday like last year's too.
Happy Birthday!

2008-07-31T02:48:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling lost.....someone please pick me up...

2008-07-28T00:56:00.001+08:00

A.D.I.D.A.S.

For past few days, i forced myself to wake up because of this. And i manage to cause if not i'll be late for work.

It's not over yet!

2008-07-23T23:52:00.004+08:00

We had our times together,

Sweet & Bitter

Lots of memorable moments we shared

There's too much to list

Least I've been through the difficult times

My soul pains for what I had tasted so sweet

Knew a love like this, My soul pair

for what I can never have again.

Look who's waiting in vain

Sometimes, i wonder why i feel so grungy

Everything is in a messed, so am i

2008-07-21T20:41:00.003+08:00

最后的风度 - 罗志祥

没有人介入
所有人觉得你该满足
我把心血全都付出
你为何想要哭
为你作主
让你受到我的保护
可是你像受苦
到底是谁难以相处
我给你幸福
你问我什么才是幸福
这个问题反而让我
把你看个清楚
你怕束缚
我的爱没能把你驯服
你没有退路
那倒不如爽快结束
就让你见识我的风度
你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷
反正我很想跳舞
我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我我不在乎
你觉得痛苦
我倒不愿意为爱受苦
只有这样我才做到
对你的背叛宽恕
想你幸福
想不到分手你才幸福
是谁的错误
我不认输我忍得住
就让你识我的风度
你离开我要不要庆祝
我不怕爱的残酷
反正我很想跳舞
我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下包袱
没有谁我也不舍得哭
我没有空在乎
就让你见识我的风度
我忍痛温柔的祝福
你会一生都记住
我要你铭心刻骨
我最喜欢挑战孤独
我也爱放下了包袱
没有谁没难度我最怕哭
爱要爱得投入
却不在乎

2008-07-20T23:36:00.003+08:00

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,
And for us to be together, to never be apart.
No one else in the world can even compare,
You're almost perfect and so is this love that we share.
We have so much more than I ever thought we would,
I love you more than I ever thought I could.
I promise to give you all I have to give,
I'll do anything for you as long as I live.
In your eyes I see our present, our future and past,
By the way you used to look at me I know we will last.
I hope that one day you'll come to realize,
How perfect you are when seen through my eyes.

"而我已经分不清你是友情还是错过的爱情"

2008-07-20T01:48:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling shit, real shit. Why things don't turn out the way i want it to be? fucking shit

2008-07-17T00:43:00.002+08:00

I felt like i'm being stabbed with millions of knives at the heart. My head hurts like thousands of hammers smashing on it. My shoulders were so heavy like there's tonnes of weight on me. My vision were blur like there's almost zero visibility. My limbs seem to be tied down with heavy chains. Things happened so quickly, i can't catch up, i can't move on. Am i lost or what?

2008-07-04T22:58:00.002+08:00

Days are hard for me, nights are harder for me. All the late nights of thinking, causing me to lose so much weight. From a 65kg to 57kg. What should i do? Or what can i do?

2008-06-30T00:44:00.002+08:00

All i did is to let you be happy and have a good life...thats all..

Love it, Mean It, Mend it
I'm lost, I'm dead

2008-06-28T23:49:00.002+08:00

Today 28th june 2008 is the day i'm leaving. Its a 17 months relationship. It's hard to let go, but I'm being forced to in a way. Whether we will be together again, just depends on fate. Just hope for the best for you in the future. Take care!

Who am I loving? Loving until I'm so immersed
Tell me who you are. You are able to take me and make me not myself
You won't get tired. But in contrast, I'm loving you until I'm exhausted.
I've never disregarded comfort and given my all to someone
Standing at this balanced point, I still feel like there's danger
Maybe it can't be seen, one can only rely on feeling
Listen to me, don't do this
Don't look at me and say you already know what to do
You are going through hard time, I'm willing to be with you and take the pain with you
As long as you're not afraid of pain, no matter how bumpy the roads is, I'll go through it with you
He won't be a good man. He also won't be a good lover
You said to me we were just passing each other
There are so many good men, days without him are still livable
I won't make you lonely again, I also won't make you even sadder
Listen to me, you need to live well from now on
No matter how many wrongs there are in the future
There will at least be my regards
My gentleness will be with you to get through the hard times

2008-06-22T22:43:00.003+08:00

You lied to me is because of dont wish to hurt me or or just avoiding a quarrel?
You loved him more than you love me and if this will make you happy, then i shall choose to let you happy. Come to think of it, we had gone through so much together, its a bit hard to let go. But by forcing you, i dont get anything in return really. All i did for you is to let you be happy and not think about the past. giving you the feeling of being loved. i did enjoy myself with you all this time and i will miss the feeling of it. maybe someday, you're mine again. this is just what im wishing for. I love you dear!

2008-06-21T01:13:00.002+08:00

Things had been going too complicated this few weeks. I also don't know where to start. I just felt so low. I'm tired. I just want to enjoy and be happy like before. It seems so difficult. Sigh~ What should i do?

2008-05-15T23:39:00.002+08:00

sigh..after browsing through the online shopping and i saw this pair of shoes. Puma Men's decker. so ex to get hold of it. but there's still other colours that i've not seen. sob~

2008-05-15T02:16:00.003+08:00

Beatles
Tell me Why

Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
Well I gave you everything i had But you left me sitting on my own
Did you have to treat me oh-so-bad
All I do is hang my head and moan
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
If it's something that I've said or done
Tell me what and I'll apologizeIf you don't I really can't go on
Holding back these tears in my eyes
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
Well I'm begging on my bended kneesIf you'll only listen to my pleas
Is there anything I can do'Cause I really can't stand it, I'm so in love with you
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me
Tell me why you cried and why you lied to me.

"all things come to he who waits"

2008-04-23T02:00:00.001+08:00

I'm blogging, I'm blogging, I'M BLOGGING!! I'm bored! I'm bored! I'm blogging on how bored i am.

"all things come to he who waits"

2008-03-23T01:25:00.003+08:00

why life isn't perfect?
why life always have to be incomplete?
why human changes so quickly?
why love is so torturing?
why people feel contempt for a weakling?
why people don't treasure when they own it and regret when they lose it?
why loneliness affect someone's feeling so much?
why is there emotion in animal?
why can't some people just stay with their partner and have a affairs behind them?
If you wants to have something fresh, don't stay and break your partner's heart.
You can hide and escape, but the fact if you don't feel the guilt.
no point hiding because someday, they will find out. then there will be an unnecessary arguement and you lose one's trust. you know its not healthy to you, yet you still do. it only throw your reputation into the draiin and wash away. its not worth it.
it's your own life, it's your own path of life. you create your own life, you lay your own path. no one will stop you. by all means.

2008-03-10T01:04:00.007+08:00

Its been long ever since i last blog, someone complained to me that she always read the same entry everytime she visits here. Ok now i'm blogging. Have been busy working at Klearcut Far East Plaza for about 3months plus. Had really a bad start, but this is reality for a starter in this line. There are times when i thought of quitting and find another salon and once i thought maybe i have chose the wrong path. But still not really that happy yet. It's just the matter of time to get yourself used to the life and pace. Work aside.

Just came back from hong kong for holiday. Went for a lot of sight-seeing and lots of shopping. And not lefting out Disneyland! Spent a week there travelling around and i'm still not done with it. Met up Yeung fa there for a night of shopping and another for clubbing. Clubbing there is so much different, no bimbos or those malay mats around. haha. but lots of ang moh! Didn't felt like coming back, thought of wanna stay there and run away from reality. but i can't! Lots of stress in Singapore..don't know why. Human is hard to please. They tends to want more when they already have it. sigh~

Just some photos from HK. Enjoy! (Click to enlarge pictures)

2007-07-28T17:05:00.001+08:00

My com go infected with virus..damn it..i can't go into messenger with my com, the com will automatically send out the virus to everyone who are online..now the virus stops me from doing a scan, so there's only one way to remove it which is re-boot!! so if you ever receive a zip folder from me..don't accept k..even if you accidentally accept, don't open up that file. God bless my com!

2007-07-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

Yet another day at home after my therapy at TTSH..Gosh~Tv, eat, Computer, tv, eat, computer. That's my day!

2007-07-19T00:32:00.000+08:00

"Can i say i miss you?"

I feel like going to Aaron Kwok Concert on Sept 1st..buuut, where to get the money?!? Anyway, have been staying at home for days. Just got no plans for me. I want to find a part-time job for the time being. If not i will die in hunger, die in boredom. Damn it, why did i actually dislocated my thumb? this feeling is not good. Lonely, I am so lonely.
Random question: Is it good or bad to love someone too much? Can you really trust your gf/bf totally? Do you believe you will last long in the relationship? Will you go and check on your gf/bf? Guess it's all up to you to react accordingly, how you want to manage your relationship.

Am I getting emo again?? haha..hope not..

2007-07-17T19:02:00.000+08:00

I missed Langkawi!! Peaceful life, no worries. Everyday facing the sea and beatiful scenary. I want to go again!

2007-07-12T23:11:00.000+08:00

Finally, I found a hair academy to go to. Top Image, which is at AMK, very far. Cost about 2k for a 1/2 year course with a nitec certificate. Training hour is any time, any day. So i can go when i wish to and leave when i wants to. Quite a worth it one. he owner is also a few award winner. reputation for that salon isn't that bad. Reds academy don't take in any more students. Sigh~ Will enrol o the academy by next month, so i will not be that free. Hopes my thumb don't give me any problem in the process of learning. Anyway will enjoy myself before i really get my ass working. Oh and i got my hair treated, kind of like rebonding..heh heh..
Everybody is leaving for holidays. Have fun peeps!

Am i really being blessed with what i have now?
Am i happy with what i'm going through?
I'm not sure whether i'm blessed, but i know that i'm just happy with what i'm having right now.
I think i should say i'm very happy!

2007-07-04T03:38:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored. It's 3 plus in the mornig and i can't get to sleep. Guess is the weather too hot? maybe. Or i've been resting too much that's why i can't sleep. Someone said i'm gay. I'm not. Just that i don't have a girlfriend and i mixed around with girls doesn't mean i am one. I'm 100% straight guy! haha..crappy crappy~shopping shopping, i need to shop. My brother's wedding is just round the corner so got no choice have to get some new clothes.

2007-06-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Langkawi..so sad. really nice place to go but all the good things have to come to an end..had so much fun there. Para-sailing, Jet-skiing, Banana Boat, travel to different beaches, cable car up the mountain, go-kart, massage, hot spring and sun tanning(but just for less than an hour due to time constraint). just some photos to update you guys. Can't post all..too many already, 400photos.....hehe

At the hotel's chess set. Cable car at 2nd station up on the mountain.

Haha, acting cool at the Black Sand Beach. Some scene of the island.

Enjoying sunset by the beach. Go Kart.

Chilling out at the bar by the beach. Tanjung Rhu Beach.

Taking off for Para-Sailing. Sun-tanning.

Going home, last look at islands of Langkawi. In the air.

2007-06-20T13:32:00.000+08:00

Life isn't that beautiful actually.
It's so hard to please yourself,
not even to mention pleasing someone else.
You want it this way, but others don't.
You give in, others take, but took it for granted.
Then you feel like shit.
You think about someone,
but that someone don't think about you like how you do.
Honeymoon period with your love one.
Why it always will come to an end?
Why can't it last longer, a little longer?
Is life really that difficult?
Maybe not?
Maybe is just how you look at it.
Always be optimistic is good,
but there are times that doesn't turn out good.
Anyway, treasure it before you lose it.

I still can't really move my thumb. It's still swelling. It still will bleed. It hurts.
When can i really start working again? The numbers in my account is depleting.
What to do?

2007-06-19T13:24:00.000+08:00

Hey hey, like finally i'm blogging..just came back from TTSH. Got my stitches and metal wire off my thumb. Oh fyi, i dislocated my thumb from a soccer game, had a op for it. now then i know that my that wire is about 2cm long which pierced into my thumb to support the injured joint. Anyway, i'm safe to to go into water now, so i can enjoy myself at Langkawi this weekend!! woohoo~

Jo i'm blogging already!! hahaha...

2007-03-30T13:36:00.000+08:00

Hey people, guess I've been away for very long ever since I ORD. Have been working almost everyday like I'm so no life. I apologise to my friends for not initiating to meet up or even giving you a simple telephone call. NAFA is out, I've to find something to do real soon. Oki, Enough for now, just came back from graveyard shift, going to bed now. See you people around!

2007-03-10T03:59:00.000+08:00

the feeling of geting back my pink ID is good.. wahahaha!! ORD!! Sorry for not updating lately..busy with work..wanna earn money to go for holiday..

2007-02-18T13:04:00.000+08:00

I can be good at anything...but I'm not good at giving what you want...

2007-02-14T16:04:00.000+08:00

Tears are okay. I give myself a good cry if i need it. But then i concentrate on all the good things in my life. It's not just other people we need to forgive, we also need to forgive ourselves. Love yourself or perish.

2007-02-10T19:13:00.000+08:00

Each night, when I go to sleep, I die. And the next morning,when I wake up, I am reborn. Don't cling to things, because everything is impermanent. Sometimes, we have to detach ourselves. But detachment doesn't mean you don't let the experience penetrate you. On the contrary, you let it penetrate you fully. That's how you are able to leave it. Take any emotion--Love for a woman, or grief for a loved one, or fear and pain from a deadly illness. If you hold back on the emotions--if you don't allow yourself to go all the way through them--you can never get to being detached, you're too busy being afraid. You're afraid of pain, you're afraid of the grief. You're afraid of the vulnerability that loving entails.
But by throwing yourself into these emotions, by allowing yourself to dive in, all the way, over your head even, you experience them fully and completely. You know what pain is. You know what love is. You know what grief is. And only then you can say, "All right. I have experienced that emotion. I recognize that emotion. Now I need to detach from that emotion for a moment."

I thought about how often this was needed in everyday life. How we feel lonely, sometimes to the point of tears. But we don't let those tears come because we are not suppose to cry. Or how we feel a surge of love for a partner but we don't say anything because we're frozen with he fear of what those words might do to the relationship. Turn on the tap. Wash yourself with emotion. It won't hurt you. It will only help. If you let the fear inside, if you pull it on like a familiar shirt, then you can say to yourself, "All right, it's just fear, I don't have to let it control me. I see it for what it is." Same for loneliness. You let go, let the tears flow, feel it completely-but eventually be able to say, "All right, that was a moment with loneliness." I'm not afraid of loneliness, not now I'm going to put that loneliness aside and know that there are other emotions in the world and I'm going to experience them slowly. Detach.

Credited to "Tuesdays With Morrie"

2007-02-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

Sunrise at jurong island

Another setting taken for the sunrise

Nothing to do while on duty

Lunch with Don & Fre (but never take with Fre) Oops

2007-02-01T15:48:00.000+08:00

Back from Jurong Island duties for the time being. Two weeks of duties. Going back tomorrow morning. No riding to there so i have to take public bus to work and go home. Boring~ But i manage to catch the sunrise and the sunset there. Scenaries over there are awesome! But one thing which interest me is the different kind of smell that you can get there. Some smell tasty, but some really can give you a ache in the head. Strong wind which never fails to stop blowing. Making my hair a mess. Hah~ Cold in the night and i have to be there and watch the sea throughout the night. I'm beat. I slept in the bus ride home and i miss three stops. Damn it! Off Day: 1st, 4th, 7th, 10th and maybe 13th.

I bought a new pair of Puma shoes! I'm kind of broke for the time being. Next maybe i'll just get a simple black Converse Sneakers. I'm geting addicted to shopping. Shit!

2007-01-27T16:32:00.000+08:00

Shop, shop, shop. It is always feeling so good when you shop. I'm so happy! Got myself a skinnies, two tee yesterday. Today i'm going to get a pair shoes. Maybe another pair of shoes, a shirt and another tee, but not so soon yet i guess. Because the digits in my bank doesn't allow me.

Indulging in superb desert tonight as what jo had said. Can't wait for the time to pass quickly!

2007-01-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

She ate my Godiva!

2007-01-18T21:08:00.000+08:00

Today is my birthday, couldn't really sleep when the clock hit 0000HRS. Everyone was soundly asleep as we had a long day of training yesterday. And today it was another of long training day. Nevertheless, i still got sabo. Running around in camp with my uniform, boots, webbing and rifle. It was really exhausting since so long i last ran with so many things on. I gave up in the end. They tied my hands and legs, carried me back to my block. I'm too tired to struggle anymore. Then, icy cold water from the water cooler suddenly poured on me and everyone just let go of me and i dropped onto the rough road on the parade square. It left me with a hurt shoulder. I went up to put down my stuff. When i was in my toilet, a big trash bag filled with water came by my back and burst at the back of my neck. Ouch, that hurts! Now i'm out till tomorrow noon. Lucky that i can have a night off tonight. Saturday BBQ, EXCITED!! So Jo, are you going to wedding dinner or to my celebration. I'm not forcing you, it's your call. XY, will you stay a bit later?

I'm going out!
It's so nice to be happy, sha la la...